Loving, Enth!

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“If you get to see your partner every day or every week, you're a lucky motherfucker, and I want you to take a minute to appriciate it. You don't know the pain of waiting months or years even to see them for a few hours.

You don't have to endure the constant feeling that part of you has been ripped away from you. It physically hurts. Randomly bursting into tears throughout the day because all you want to do is hold them close to you but there are hundreds of miles in the way of that. Getting yelled at by a family always telling you to go outside because you spend too much time inside emailing them, and you'd love to go outside, but there's no wifi outside. So you let them yell all they want, because nothing's more inportant than getting to talk to the love of your life. You don't know what it's like to worry non-stop if they're okay. Not having the means to get to them if they need you. You don't have to sit there, unable to help when they're crying or scared. Constantly wishing they were there. Going everywhere without them.

Talking only through a fucking screen. Hugging a pillow tight to your chest and sobbing into it because you miss them so much. Having to wait who knows how long just to feel their lips on yours. Willing to do anything just to spend another day with them. Never being able to fall asleep holding them safe in your arms. Having no one to hold you and tell you it'll be okay when that's all you need. You just... you don't know how god damn much it hurts to be seperated from what you love most in the world for so long...”

Eng yomoni ish davomida proyektning hisobga olmagan qismi chiqib qolishi, alam qiladi :(

I love it!

Mabodo dasturchi obunachilarim bo'lsa ish bor, microservice qurishga, 1000$gacha oylik boshlanishiga, farqi yo'q qaysi tilda yozishni, muhimi yaxshi bilsa bo'ldi, refer qivoraman )

Et si tu n'existais pas
Dis-moi pourquoi j'existerais
Pour traîner dans un monde sans toi
Sans espoir et sans regret

Хўш, ишларга келсак, ҳаммаси яхши, орада "буёкишим" билан "юбилей" ўтказиб олдик, ойлик тушди қанчадур миқдорда қарзларимни уздим, кўнгил хотирижам, иш кўп, шошилиб яшаяпмиз, деярли қўшиқ эшита олмаяпман, икки марта наушнигимни йўқотдим, хозир наушнигим йўқ шунинг учун телефонни қулоқга тутиб 'буёкишим'ни эшитиб юрибман, ҳай майли, ўўларингда нима янгиликлар? қаерлардан сўрайлик?)