Fozil Mamadaliev

Qayta bajaraverish

Bir maqsadga yetishish uchun insondan bor yo’g’i bir narsa talab qilinadi xolos, deb o’ylayman: qaytaraverish. Qaytaraverish, duolarida, o’ziga gapirayotganda, tilida, amalida va hattoki atrof-muhitida.

Bir jiyanim, Shoxruxbek, rosa chet el universitetiga qabul qilinishni, to’liq grant yutishni orzu qilardi. Shu orzusini u qaytaraverardi. Undan ham ko’proq uning dadasi yaxshilab o’qishni, chet elga ketishni qayta eslataverardi. Va u hozir Duke Kunshanga to’liq grant asosida qabul qilindi.

Do’stlarim, Botirjon va Doston, chet elda sayohat qilishlarni, viza, Yevropadagi hayot haqida qayta gapiraverishardi. Ular hozir ko'plab chet el diyorlarini aylanishdi va musofirchilik gashdini surishmoqda.

“O’qishim bor, full-time on-site ishda qiynalaman. Remote ish topishim kerak. Remote. Remote”, deya takrorlayverardim. NumeoAI’ga remote software engineer sifatida ishga kirdim. (ha, tabriklasangiz bo’ladi)

Qayta o’ziga eslataverish harakatga undaydi. Qayta harakat qilaverish tajriba beradi. Qayta duo qilaverish esa natija beradi.

Chunki duo albatta ijobat bo’ladi. [2:186]

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Baxtga yagona yo'l

Insonda shunday tug’ma qobiliyat borki, u yaxshi bilan yomonni farqiga boradi. Bu uning instinktida shakllangan xislatdir.

Hech kim bir begunoh bolani o’ldirish, qonini to’kish yaxshi demaydi. Yokida hech kim biron kimga yordam qo’lini cho’zish yomon demaydi.

Insonda yana bir xislat borki, u yomonlikdan uzoqlashib, yaxshilik tomon intiladi. Nima uchun? Nima uchun biz yaxshi hayot kechirish, yaxshi amallar qilish, yaxshi boylik egasi bo’lish kabi narsalarga intilamiz? O’zimizni baxtli his qilish uchun.

Inson yaxshilik qilar ekan, yokida yaxshilikga ega bo’lar ekan, u ich-ichidan xursand bo’ladi, o’zini baxtli his etadi.

Yomonlikdan uzoqlashishimiz sababi ham shunda - o’zimizni yomon his qilishdan qochamiz. Yomonlik qilsak, yokida bizga yomon ne’mat berilsa, o’zimizni yomon his qilamiz.

Inson baxtli yashash uchungina yashaydi. Hammaning oliy maqsadi ham shunda - baxtli yashash. Haqiqiy baxtga erishishning yagona yo’li esa yaxshilik qilish.

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2024-yil 1-yanvardan xat kelibdi:

Dear FutureMe,

Don’t stop working on yourself. In 2025, you should be a monster. A fucking monster in a good shape, with a good knowledge, and with an incredible articulation.

In 2025, you should have made $40,000 in profit already. You should have expanded your business. You should have gone to the gym consistently and weigh 65+ kg.

In 2025, you should have read 25+ books.

Don’t tell me that you didn’t do any of these. I know it’s hard. But you gotta grind. Look at the world now, everything is evolving. Look at your peers who are going to the gym and grinding every single day. If you don’t improve for only one day, you’re definitely gonna be left way behind.

If you’re reading this, I am working too to make you proud. I am working on my physique, my business and my education. I announced a dopamine detox, that I don’t watch reels or shorts and never drink soft drinks and support Israel. I announced it on our channel. We do what we publicly say we’ll do, right? Yeah. I never stop. We don’t need all that noise, politics bullshit, do we? No! We are not gonna be left behind if we don’t consume fake news. Our friends will inform us about what they saw on fucking Instagram or whatever anyways.

I know I couldn’t study abroad. But I’ll promise, in 2025, you will be so proud of not doing that. Because, we will already have a nice car and a successful business that many college students abroad don’t have yet.

I am trying to not lose control. I know it’s hard. I know I started a war with myself. The hardest war ever is the war against yourself. A war that doesn’t include any weapons but will tear you apart. A war that doesn’t have game over. A war that is never-ending until death. I try to win this war every fucking time. In 2025, I’ll promise that our ego will be afraid of us. I might be a slave to my ego right now, but in 2025, you will be a master. You will enslave it.

Yeah. Just don’t lose control. Or if you did, just take it back. Just have a little faith. 5 years of hard work - that’s all it takes.

And also by the way, don’t forget to have entertainment with friends. Never underestimate friendship. Value every second you’re with them.

Okay, I will keep working. So should you!

Bye. Don’t forget to write another letter to your 2026 self. Take care!

Motivatsiya cho’qqiga chiqqan paytda yozilgan shekilli )

10 LESSONS IN 2024

1. Never try to please others at the expense of yourself.

2. The effort is from you, the result is from Him.

3. You can’t satisfy both your ego and soul at the same time.

4. The war between you and your ego doesn’t end. You just have to keep winning.

5. Never ever get emotionally attached to the person you don’t know well enough. They may turn out to be totally different than you thought.

6. However confident you think you are, do always prepare.

7. “You can buy an education. But you can’t buy an intellect.”

8. “Discipline alone isn't enough. Responsibility is what keeps us hungry in our goals.”

9. Making a mistake is not a tragedy. Refusing to admit it is the real tragedy.

10. “Learn to get bored, for it produces ideas.”

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Tan oling

Omma oldida noto’g’ri ma’lumot beryapsiz, va sizga kimdir xato qilganingizni aytsa, tan olishni biling. To’g’ri, hammani oldida “sharmanda” bo’lish nafsimizga yoqmaydi. Lekin aybni tan olmaslik sizga faqat va faqat minus olib keladi.

Avvalambor, bir mavzuni to’liq tushunmaysizmi, gapirmang. Bu holatda sukut saqlaganingiz o’zingizga yaxshi. Mayli, hamma ham xato qiladi. Lekin tan olmaslik kibrlilarning, johillarning ishi.

Aslida kimdir sizga aybingizni aytishi bu bir imkoniyat. O’sish uchun, xatoingizni to’girlash uchun.

Xato qilish fojia emas. Xato qilganini bilib, uni tan olmaslik fojiadir.

Zotan, Jannat begunohlar bilan emas, balki tavba qiladigan (aybini tan olib, qayta takrorlamaydigan) gunohkorlar bilan to’la.

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Shu yil eng sevib o'qigan kitobingiz?

Ular rejalaringni hech kimga aytma deyishadi. Lekin bu to’g’rimi?

Sen tajribaga ega bo’lmasdan, kelajakda nima bo’lishini bilmasdan turib reja tuzasan. Hech kimga aytmay turib bu rejalaringni bajarishni boshlaysan. Yiqilasan, turasan, vaqt yo’qotasan. Oxirda esa bu rejang puxta emasligi, tajribasiz ekanligini tushunib yetasan. Bu sodir bo’lishi mumkin agar hech kimga aytmay bajarsang.

Endi rejalaringni ota-onangga, chin do’stlaringga, yoshi katta va tajribali tanishlaringga aytasan. Ular maslahat berishadi. O’zlarini boshlaridan nima o’tganligini gapirib berishadi, xato ekanligini aytishadi, sabab keltirishadi, va sen o’zingga kerakli xulosa chiqarib olasan. Bahonada sen ham tajribali bo’lib olasan. Suhbat orqali. Ulashish orqali.

Demak, rejalaringni tanishlaringga, o’zing ishongan insonlarga aytishning zarar tarafi yo’q. Foydasi aniq bor.

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This was the most failed year I had in my life. I did almost nothing here in my resolution. The only thing I can be proud of is completing Backend NodeJs course.

So, I wrote yet another plan for the coming year but with different style.

1. No sleep after Fajr
I have this very bad habit of sleeping after Fajr. Time to break it. It’s going to be hard for the first 3 days, but I will adapt.

2. Exercise every morning
Just to get some energy and get the blood flowing, I will do some push-ups or any other lean exercise.

3. Write notes every day
Even a small takeaway is enough. Writing is what’s important. Writing helps you think. It also helps you analyze your old thoughts and realize how you’ve changed and what to change.

4. No shorts or reels for more than 10 mins
Attention is becoming valuable these days. I have realized that I have lost much of my attention span because of this continuous scrolling. I can’t even focus for more than 10 mins. My fingers are used to scroll and I get distracted quite often.

5. Read daily
To improve attention span, memory and ideas, I must read daily.

Inspired by Aziz aka.

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Chingizxon boshchiligida mo’g’ullarning bir paytda ham aqlli, ham jirkanch ishlari, Qipchoqlarning nomardligi va xionati, Musulmonlar orasida fitna sabab Buxoro va Xorazm saltanatining qulashi, jasur va dinga sodiq ikki qalin do’st Jaloliddin va Temur Malikning din xizmati yo’lida shahid bo’lishi - bu tarixga qiziqmasdim. Shu ikki kitob qiziqtirib qo’ydi: Yonayotgan Buxoro va Alvido Buxoro. Hammaga tavsiya qilaman.

Rizqimiz yozilgan

Ko’pchilik IT sohasida o’qiyotganimni eshitib, “Kimdan so’rasang IT’shnik bo’laman deyaverarkanda. Hamma IT’shnik bo’laversa, ularga shuncha ish qayerdan keladi axir?!” deyishadi.

Birinchidan, IT ga bo’lgan talab hech qachon yo’qolib ketmaydi. IT sohasiga talab ko’payyapgani uchun shu sohaga bo’lgan qiziqish ham oshyapti. Talabga yarasha taklif. Xohlagan sohangizni qarang, IT sohasiga talab bor. Avtomatlashtirishga ehtiyoj bor.

Ikkinchidan, hamma “IT’shnik bo’laman” degani bilan, hamma ham zo’r IT’shnik bo’lib yetishib chiqolmaydi. Misol uchun Najot Talimda bitta guruhda 20 ta odam o’qishni boshlasa, kurs oxirida o’rtacha 6-7 kishi bitiradi xolos. Xullas, “I want to be” bilan “I am” ni katta farqi bor.

Eng asosiysi, biz o’zimiz qiziqqan sohani eng zo’r mutaxassisi bo’lishimiz kerak. Rizqimiz esa allaqachon yozilgan.

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Og’riq his qilinishi shart

Muvaffaqiyat kaliti mehnatligini bilamiz. Lekin aynan qanday ko’rinishdagi va qanday darajadagi mehnat?

Muvaffaqiyat bir narsani talab qiladi: og’riq. Nafsning og’rishi.

Bir ishni qilgingiz kelmaydi, ammo qilaverasiz.

Nega ko’p muvaffaqiyatli insonlar zalga chiqishni, shug’ullanishni tavsiya qilishadi? Chunki shug’ullanish ham shu og’riqga bir misol.

Zalga chiqsangiz, siz biror bir narsaga erishish siz o’ylaganchalik oson emasligini tushunasiz.

Maqsadga erishish uchun sizdan intizom, mehnat, og’riq talab qilinishini tushunasiz.

Og’riq, sabr, matonat va intizom.

Natijami? Shu kelishuvni qabul qilishga majbursiz: Harakat sizdan, natija esa Allohdan.

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Bering - olasiz!

Har qanday ko'rinishdagi maqsadga yetishning bir yo'li - bu berish.

O’z sohangiz mutaxassisi bo’lmoqchimisiz? Shirin uyquni bering (tark eting), dangasalikni bering (intizom), o'yin-kulguga ajratilgan vaqtingizni bering.

Yaxshi qomat egasi bo'lmoqchimisiz? Energiyani bering, muskulni bering. Evaziga kattaroq muskul va ko'proq energiya qaytib keladi.

Boy bo'lmochimisiz? Pulingizni bering. Ehson qiling. Investitsiya kiriting.

Xohlagan narsangizni ziyoda qilish uchun siz o'sha narsani bering. Bering - ko’proq olasiz!

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Tanlov o’zingda

Qo’shiq eshitasan, hissiyotlarga berilasan, quvnaysan. Lekin ich-ichingdan siqilasan. Qalbing taskin topmaydi.

Qur’on eshitasan, qo’shiqdek maroqli emasdek tuyuladi. Lekin qalbing halovat topadi.

Ertalab bomdod vaqti juda ham shirin uyqu bosadi. Mazza qilib uxlaysan. Keyinchalik uyg’onganingda esa, qalbing siqiladi. Afsuslanasan.

Ertasiga o’zingni majburlab uyg’onasan. Shirin uyquni qo’yib, Robbingga yuzlanasan. Qalbing va ruhing halovat topadi.

Ba’zida ehson qilging keladi. Lekin puling kamayishidan qo’rqasan. Pulingni berib qo’yging kelmaydi. Lekin Robbingning va’dasini eslab, niyyatingni o’zgartirasan va ehson qilasan. Nafsing og’riydi, ammo ruhing poklanadi.

Ruhing xohlagan ishni qilsang, nafsing og’riydi. Nafsing xohlagan ishni qilsang, ruhing og’riydi. Sen uchun qaysi biri muhimroq? Tanlov o’zingda.

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Sometimes you have to give up on some of your dreams to achieve a bigger one.

I couldn’t go abroad to study last year. I had decent scores, I tried but couldn’t make it. I retook SAT and bettered my activities. “This time” was my inspiration. I applied again to top colleges in USA and Korea in early cycle. But it got worse and worse. I got 10 rejections out of 10 applications.

Maybe it wasn’t my “nasib” to go abroad this year. And I accepted it. You may say, “You should never give up, you should keep trying.” Yes, I tried. But I can’t keep trying and trying only to study abroad. It was never my purpose to go and study in America. Qatar was my favorite place to study bachelors, but again - it wasn’t my “nasib”. My purpose is to become the best in my field and to become rich. I already lost one year. And I don’t want to lose another.

Instead, I am studying in one of the best universities in Uzbekistan. I am selling stuff online on Uzum Market, and it is going well, alhamdulillah. I am learning Backend Development at Najot Ta’lim. I can say I’m improving myself. Maybe this is better for me. Everybody has different paths.

So, yeah. I’m hustling)

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