The more you try to be good, try to be polite try to control your anger try to understand try to be ideal the more you make yourself worthless. Everyone just use your kindness as you have to do but nobody even try to take care when you need attention. As a result it is YOU who caused this sh*t. Because you have never known your value. What is stopping you to start spending time for yourself why you don't do anything for your own happiness instead of expecting something from others. Don't change don't let yourself be sad. Pls remove your pink glasses. You can't change people with your kindness no one could do this. This is a disgusting continuity that never changes.