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Today, one of the students asked me what my happiness is.

I don't know man. Like really. It's just that most of the time the easiest questions are the hardest to answer. But here we go.

I'd say I'm eternally grateful for being a man of knowledge - something that I have been mesmerized by ever since I remember myself. It's a huge responsibility and credibility, to be able to look within the superficial layers of any human endeavours, including humans themselves.

At a certain moment of my life, I got me to the point, where I wanted to be just like others. Then, through Guidance and patience, I've come to appreciate and understand who I truly am.

The next thing which makes me happy is doing what I love - studying languages, solving puzzles, learning complex and abstract stuff. And making beats. Yeah, Sanctorium is huge on music, and if you check the music section on the channel page, you'll see a playlist. Mine, consisting of my favorite go-to's and my own tracks (currently not released for commercial purposes).

Third comes my family and friends whom I take huge pride on. You know, I believe we meet certain people in life and that's for a reason. For His divine reason. So if anything, my first best friend is my mom and all my close friends are my family.

Last but not least, I'm quite a man of my own - having a miscellaneous collection of fragrances by Tom Ford, Versace and some middle eastern perfume houses. Everyone is interested in Sarvar aka's prep sources now. My method in writing seems to be working, based on my students' essays. My quest seems to reach its culmination, making it possible for my self-driven search of mastery and perfection of my craftsmanship in the language.

But more importantly, I work in one of the best, if not the best learning centers in Navoiy, where the integrity, as one wise man explained to me, plays a vital role.

I can already call all these my very own happiness. So, yeah, I'm a happy Arab trapped in a double land locked country in a central Asian country, proficient in Russian and teaching English.

Wild stuff. But again, you're on Sanctorium - a place where we defy the conventional and seek for the terra incognita.



الحياة جميلة والله أكبر

2024-yil sizga nima o'rgatdi? Shoshilmaslikni.

Shoshilgan kechikadi. Ko'proq shoshiling, ko'proq kechikasiz. Natijani shoshirib tezlashtirmaysiz. Jarayonni tezlashtirishni eng oson usuli bu hotirjam miyya bilan diqqatni jamlash - sekinlashish.

U ham o'shanday uxlab yotsa bo'lardi. O'ziga-da shu tinchroq edi. Axir ertalab turib, pechkaning qornini to'yg'izarlik o'tin yig'masa, uydagilardan dashnom, qilmishidan pushaymon, qishdan esa sovuqni yeydi. Biroq har kech shu holat. O'zi rozi bo'lmagancha, neytral kayfiyatda yashaydi u. Qanchalik og'ir gaplarni qalbida saqlaydiki, kimgadir aytmoqchi bo'lsa, og'zidan chiqishi bilan yerga yopishib, manzilga yetib bormaydi. Keyin yer ham ko'mir to'kilgandek qorayib qoladi. Uniyam tozalsh kerak bo'ladi. Nima bo'lganda ham, kuchli bo'lish yoki uxlash kerak edi. U yarim tungacha chiday oldi. Keyin kuni bo'yi toliqqan mushaklar qo'yarga qo'ymadi. Uyquga ketdi. Xona issiq va burqsiq. Xuddi uning orzulari o'tinga aylanib, chala yonayotgandek. Hechqisi yo'q, kimdur ertaroq tursa, qaytadan o't qalab yuborar:) Shunda yaxshi bo'lib ketadi.