🔽I feel like I’m failing at everything I try. Every time I fail, I promise myself that next time I’ll succeed. But it never happens. Maybe success isn’t meant for me. I feel like a loser, and I don’t even know why. I’ve always given my best, but it’s never been enough.
Take my English course, for example. I’ve been studying for a whole year, but when I finally took the real exam, I failed. It’s strange because most candidates achieved high scores, but I didn’t. This experience left me deeply stressed. I never thought I’d get a result like this.
Sure, for some people, my score might be good, but it’s not enough for my goals. Sometimes, I ask myself why I even studied English in the first place. I hate myself for being this way. I’ve heard people say, “Failure is the best way to success,” but I disagree. My goals are like a chain reaction: if I don’t achieve a high score on the test, I can’t apply to my dream university. If I don’t study there, I won’t master my field. It all falls apart.
I’ve also observed other students preparing for IELTS. I must admit, some people seem to have a natural talent for it. They learn quickly and score high without much effort, while my efforts seem to go unnoticed. Maybe my goals aren’t good in Allah’s eyes (I hope I’m saying this truely). I don’t know anymore.
It’s hard to keep going when your dreams feel so far away, but here I am, still trying to figure it all out.
Take my English course, for example. I’ve been studying for a whole year, but when I finally took the real exam, I failed. It’s strange because most candidates achieved high scores, but I didn’t. This experience left me deeply stressed. I never thought I’d get a result like this.
Sure, for some people, my score might be good, but it’s not enough for my goals. Sometimes, I ask myself why I even studied English in the first place. I hate myself for being this way. I’ve heard people say, “Failure is the best way to success,” but I disagree. My goals are like a chain reaction: if I don’t achieve a high score on the test, I can’t apply to my dream university. If I don’t study there, I won’t master my field. It all falls apart.
I’ve also observed other students preparing for IELTS. I must admit, some people seem to have a natural talent for it. They learn quickly and score high without much effort, while my efforts seem to go unnoticed. Maybe my goals aren’t good in Allah’s eyes (I hope I’m saying this truely). I don’t know anymore.
It’s hard to keep going when your dreams feel so far away, but here I am, still trying to figure it all out.