Mohidil Feruzovna | blog

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I am a kind of girl who feels things deeply. I am a kind of girl who is happy in small and simple things. I'm a kind of girl who trusts people a little too easily. I am a kind of girl who needs love and respect. I am the kind of girl who overthinks and hurts herself. I am a kind of girl who gets friendly quickly. And I talk too much, I speak too much only to the person with whom I am comfortable. But I regret speaking too much so that the other person does not get irritated with me, does not get bored with me, because I'm afraid that the people I'm comfortable with might get bored of me and leave me.
No matter how much I live alone, no matter how much I like being alone, at some point I feel that I should be with someone. Many times it seems that I cannot do anything in life. No matter how happy I am in front of others, no matter how much I cheer for people, there comes a point when I feel like I don't have anyone. I think about texting someone and telling him/her my problem, but then I think that they will take me for granted and take advantage of my weakness, they will judge me and so on...
Many times it seems that I will never find someone for whom I am special, whose favorite person I am, who cares about me. Sometimes people talk lovingly, and sometimes they are rude. Aisa kyuu? Is it because of me?? But I talk to everyone lovingly, right? This thing literally hurts. Many times people say something that literally hurts... But I spoil my mind thinking about these small things and then I cry.
People tell me that I am very sensitive and I cry over everything. Is it wrong? And that's why I don't cry in front of people anymore, I control my crying in front of them. But sometimes the situation is such that you get tired of everyone and you just keep crying even though there is no specific reason. I think about every small point and speak so that the other person doesn't get hurt, but why doesn't it happen to me?

If you make a plan, life never works out that way.
With no plan, nothing can go wrong.
And if something spins out of control, it doesn't matter.

Parasite.

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