I wouldn’t be here:
Occasionally and that is sometimes over the weekends that makes me think to a level I thank, hate, love,respect and depress myself and my actions.
Thank: I wouldn’t be here if I chose to not talk out my future (education) with my parents that New Year’s day that urged me to apply to a private school in Tashkent. I wouldn’t be here If I couldn’t manage independency properly. I wouldn’t be here If I chose to sleep that day when it was 2 hours left to submit NYU Application.
Hate: Usually hate comes from the things I cannot control or from not understanding the people I love. Outgrowing your people is one of the ridiculously tough things. Imagine talking to your people and you simply don’t understand them or just not enjoy the conversation anymore. It seems as if it is not going anywhere but only greetings while you long for the deep connections and conversations and they simply cannot deliver.
Love (self-respect): Treating myself as a character and respecting that character. Taking care of him, making him busy to build himself and speaking up. I am glad that I learned how to speak up to people who make ironic jokes, cuts my words in between or indirectly disrespects me.
Depress: To the uncertain future which makes me feel the emptiness and confidence break that I always remind myself of. It is not the end. It was also not the end when I was 14 and learning English barely dreaming of a top-notch education. Look at me now and you will look at me the same in that uncertain future.
Occasionally and that is sometimes over the weekends that makes me think to a level I thank, hate, love,respect and depress myself and my actions.
Thank: I wouldn’t be here if I chose to not talk out my future (education) with my parents that New Year’s day that urged me to apply to a private school in Tashkent. I wouldn’t be here If I couldn’t manage independency properly. I wouldn’t be here If I chose to sleep that day when it was 2 hours left to submit NYU Application.
Hate: Usually hate comes from the things I cannot control or from not understanding the people I love. Outgrowing your people is one of the ridiculously tough things. Imagine talking to your people and you simply don’t understand them or just not enjoy the conversation anymore. It seems as if it is not going anywhere but only greetings while you long for the deep connections and conversations and they simply cannot deliver.
Love (self-respect): Treating myself as a character and respecting that character. Taking care of him, making him busy to build himself and speaking up. I am glad that I learned how to speak up to people who make ironic jokes, cuts my words in between or indirectly disrespects me.
Depress: To the uncertain future which makes me feel the emptiness and confidence break that I always remind myself of. It is not the end. It was also not the end when I was 14 and learning English barely dreaming of a top-notch education. Look at me now and you will look at me the same in that uncertain future.